Dari judulnya kita bisa tau kalo gue masih dalam suasana di pantai. Maklum baru pulang study tour ke Pangkor. Seru loh, gue tim biologi. jadi kita snorkeling sama jalan-jalan di pantai. Jadi agak sedikit menghitam sih kulit. Tapi gapapa, worth it. Ngomongin ombak, ombak itu bisa menggambarkan banyak hal. Salah satunya perasaan. Yep, kita pasti sering denger puisi-puisi atau lirik-lirik lagu yang menggambarkan perasaan lewat ombak. Atau ngga? atau gue yang sotoy? Yaudah lah. Tapi perasaan itu emang kadang-kadang kaya ombak. terombang-ambing. Ga jelas kemana. Tapi yang kita tau, ombak akan berakhir di pantai. Sama seperti halnya perasaan, walaupun labil ga tau mau kemana, atau mau pilih apa, pasti ujung-ujung nya kita akan menjatuhkan satu pilihan.

Pas study tour, gue snorkeling bareng tim biologi yang lain. Gue main ditengah-tengah laut yang sepertinya sebentar lagi pasang. Seperti yang kita tau, kalo pasang ombak nya bakal jadi gede dan kenceng. Pas gue berenang gue kebawa ombak, tapi ujung-ujungnya keseret lagi ke tempat awal. Gitu aja terus . Yah, kurang lebih selama stengah jam. Gue ngerasa gue labil banget pas kebawa ombak. Kadang gue mendekat ke pantai, tapi ga lama ketarik lagi menjauh dari pantai. Kadang mendekat ke pantai trus nabrak karang-karang, sakit. Nanti tetep aja kebawa lagi menjauh dari pantai. Bisa ngebayangin kan?

Buat gue itu semua seperti kehidupan. Kehidupan gue sepertinya sih (buka kartu). Eh, ngga juga. gue rasa semua orang pasti pernah ngerasain kehidupan yang terombang-ambing. Gue gatau mau nyelesein tulisan ini gimana. Yang pasti gue sekarang lagi berada ditengah-tengah ombak besar. Nope, gue udah balik dari Pangkor. Jadi gue ga lagi beneran berenang di laut.

What make people protest about something? It's only because they are critical thinker. They analyzing something before they accept it. In most of the cases, the people who are smart usually criticize something.
Yep, I'm one who protest when I'm being told of something. No, I'm not saying I'm smart. I've taught that way of thinking. This thing happen really often in my surrounding. I am protester, so yes I protest quite often.

But, sometimes it happen not in the right situation. Well, I did that lots of time maybe. Recently I feel different way about protest. I mean, I enjoy protest about something which I find not suitable or not right. But, this time I'm the one who being criticized. Not really criticized actually, just a bunch of protests. Because, there is no point there.

Being protested is not as fun as protesting. I've been there.

Well, what happen to you? I'm sorry if I did mistakes. I don't even know what it is, if I had one. Well, you can remind me if you want to. I'd rather hear you yelling and mad at me than to have you keep silent all day long. I'm about to cry now. And already did. I Love You. I just don't know where did I get wrong. Like seriously I don't know. Yeah, maybe I had one. So, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry then. I don't know when I can express this without having write it in my blog. I mean to talk face to face with you. It's seems very hard to talk to you. All my mind thinking of you, yelling at me. And that's not a respond that I hope. Well, I don't really expect you to read this. If you read this. Please, keep in your heart that I love you. No matter what. Maybe I'm not your best. Even I'm the useless one. But, believe me that I'm trying all my best to be the best for you. To be what you really want me to be. I know, I've already asking too much forgiveness. Deep in my heart I know, you'll forgive me. You're the best. I just always forget the good thing you did. I just remember the thing that I don't like. I'm sorry. Hope this gonna end very soon. I love you mom.

Am I realistic? Just wondering.