Well, what happen to you? I'm sorry if I did mistakes. I don't even know what it is, if I had one. Well, you can remind me if you want to. I'd rather hear you yelling and mad at me than to have you keep silent all day long. I'm about to cry now. And already did. I Love You. I just don't know where did I get wrong. Like seriously I don't know. Yeah, maybe I had one. So, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry then. I don't know when I can express this without having write it in my blog. I mean to talk face to face with you. It's seems very hard to talk to you. All my mind thinking of you, yelling at me. And that's not a respond that I hope. Well, I don't really expect you to read this. If you read this. Please, keep in your heart that I love you. No matter what. Maybe I'm not your best. Even I'm the useless one. But, believe me that I'm trying all my best to be the best for you. To be what you really want me to be. I know, I've already asking too much forgiveness. Deep in my heart I know, you'll forgive me. You're the best. I just always forget the good thing you did. I just remember the thing that I don't like. I'm sorry. Hope this gonna end very soon. I love you mom.

Am I realistic? Just wondering.

Stand up comedy. Gue mulai mempelajari bidang yang satu ini (baca: nonton youtube). Stand up comedy ini baru aja di Indonesia. Sebenarnya di Amerika udah ada lama. Cuma yah, bahasa inggris. Jadi jokesnya suka garing. Sebenarnya sih karna gue ga ngerti ya. Yah, gue kan cinta bahasa tanah air.

Okay, back to stand up comedy. Awalnya baca bukunya Raditya Dika, trus follow twitternya. Dia sering mention stand up comedy. Dari situ mulai gue cari di youtube. Pas ketemu nonton dong pastinya, gue nonton yang Raditya Dika. Dan, sampai akhirnya, gue merambah kemana-mana dan sudah nonton semua stand up gig yang ada di youtube.

Gue menaruh hati kepada seorang comic (panggilan untuk stand up comedian). Don't get me wrong, menaruh hati disini artinya gue suka sama jokes2 dan semua gig nya dia. Nama comic nya Acho (@muhadkly) . Dan gue telah baca inside story nya dia. Hati gue terenyuh. Bener-bener sedih ceritanya dia. Gue amazed dengan abilitynya ngelucu, sama tulisan dia yang di blognya. Very different between both joke and his writing on his blog. Dan, dua-dua nya keren.

Selain Acho ada lagi namanya Sammy D.P (@notaslimboy). Postur tubuhnya yang gendut, bikin dia lucu kalo lagi stand up. Materi yang disampein bagus2. Nyindirnya kena banget. Ga banyak sih gig nya dia di youtube.

Ada lagi Pandji (@pandji). Kalo yang ini comic multi talenta. Dia bisa nge-rap, nyanyi, ngelucu, nulis buku dan macamm-macam lainnya. Dia mendukung legalisasi ganja di Indonesia. Stand up nya sering nyidir pak beye. Dia bisa ngikutin gaya pak beye pidato. Pokoknya dia juga keren.

Dan yang terakhir, gue sangat berharap mereka mau dateng ke Kuala Lumpur. Gue mau nonton LIVE!

Betapa mudahnya mengucapkan keinginan
Entah kenapa, kata-kata ingin sudah tidak asing lagi
Begitu ringan lidah mengucapkan "aku ingin"
Kata itu terus mengalir dengan derasnya dari lidah ini

Yang selalu kupertanyakan
Mengapa sedikit pun hatiku tak tergerak?
Tergerak untuk mau berusaha
Berusaha merubah yang masih dapat dirubah

Kata-kata tanpa bukti
Bagaikan langit indah tanpa bintang
Bagaikan musim gugur tanpa daun yang berjatuhan
Hampa rasanya

Seseorang selalu menagihi ku bukti dari kata inginku
Dan aku hanya bisa diam
Seolah aku hanya sebuah tape recorder
Mengulang setiap kata tanpa ada perubahan sedikitpun.