life

few notes to self

12:42 PM



  • Mid Semester is around the corner Afifa! Belajar gih sana! nilai jelek semua juga, malu dong!
  • Find new hobby deh, jadi dirumah tuh ga baca komik+tidur aja. Find something yang bermanfaat deh!
  • Mana katanya New Year's Resolution nya mau life nya lebih ter-organize?
  • Udah lah, kegagalan bukan segalanya. Bahkan itu awal dari kesuksesan!
  • Stop being not you fa, you're great with what you have and what you are.
  • Stay away from clingy and annoying part of you Afifa! It's disturbing people.
  • Pikirin mau jadi apa kamu Afifa, mau ambil jurusan apa? mau kuliah dimana?
  • Tanya ke diri sendiri deh, umur berapa sih? kok masih childish banget.
  • Satu lagi, itu benang di bibir jangan di gigit-gigit, ntar kenapa-napa loh! dijait lagi mau?


art

Art stuff

9:23 AM


First of all, I want to thank god because my lips is getting better day by day. Thank You Allah, for giving me back the normality to my lips. Alhamdulillah.

Okaay, today I visited two art shop. One is T-Square just right at the back of Central Market. Click this to open the map. It's totally awesome store for people who love art. And Yes, I do love art. Another one is Art Friend . It is located in The Gardens, Mid Valley. This is also awesome place for people who go for art stuff.

How to go?

T-Square Trading Sdn Bhd
M22, Central Market, Jalan Kasturi, Kuala Lumpur, Wilayah Persekutuan, 50050
03-2274 1922 ‎

You can take LRT untill, Masjid Jamek and walk a bit (less than a kilometer) or stop at the Pasar Seni station.
The T-Square is right at the back of Central Market.


and...

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia – The Gardens @ Mid Valley City!
Third Floor Lot T-213
Lingkaran Syed Putra
59200 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Tel: +603 2284 7777
Fax: +603 2284 7577
Opens Daily from 10am to 10pm

Well, for Mid Valley / The Gardens it's a bit difficult. You have only 2 options either by a car or KTM and stop at Mid Valley station. Or, you can take LRT to Bangsar Station and take a cab to the Gardens.

They have many kind of art supply, such as canvas, acrylic paint, dye paint, even gypsum and many kind of pencil for drawing. It's amazing store for me. I Love Art. :)

Yes, I'm promoting the store without any reward. But, it's really nice to go there.

The problem is, I really have great passion in ART, but I really don't have any skill in it. So yeah, every time I go there, I just can see it. Yeah, no point of buying, cause I'm not gonna produce something good after all. So yeah, so saaaaaaaaaad.

Anyway, someone told me this "It's never late to start"

And yes, I'll start from drawing random thing.

Feel the passion and made something from it - Afifa



doctor

Surgery

10:51 AM

I had minor surgery today, to remove the unusual ulcer. I'm shaking while waiting the turn. Suddenly got stomachache. They called my name, and I came to the surgery room. I don't have to change clothes or anything, cause it's only small surgery. The doctor was calm. He took a photo of my unusual ulcer before remove it. After that he started inject me with anesthetic. I can't feel anything. The doctor cut my unusual ulcer, I even can hear the thing was being cut off. Sounds really scary.

He told me all the process, he said "okay now I'll do some stitches" "and now it's 90% done" "okay, we wipe the blood and give you another antiseptics " and finally done. I can't feel anything, the anesthetic still working. I looked to the mirror. "GOD SAVE MY LIPS!" It is weird. When got home, I can feel the pain. Not really hurt anyway, so tomorrow I'll go to school, maybe.

Oh yeah, I missed the class photo session. :(

The doctor said "After this, eat carefully ya.. so you won't bite your lips again and don't have through another surgery again"

"I WILL!"

Feel the pain, so you'll know how much it's hurts. And after that You'll be more careful - Afifa


chemistry

One single day

5:40 PM


It's weekends. :)

*Let's forget, kejadian hari Senin. Dimana kelas kami melakukan praktikum, titrasi. Yang sebenarnya tidak terlalu sulit, karna sudah dijelaskan terlebih dahulu oleh guru kimia kami Pak Dwi. Everything start from the time Pak Dwi membagikan kelompok. And I'm chosen with Husnul and Ayyub. What is in my mind? "Sekelompok sama Ayyub ga kiamat kok fa. Ada harapan walaupun peluang nya 1 per 100." I'm being optimistic. Which is good. Titrasi bisa di ulang minimal 3 kali untuk mendapatkan hasil yang akurat. Gue sama Husnul udah mencoba 2 kali. Pas yang ke-tiga, somehow Pak Dwi nyuruh Ayyub yang ngerjain. Dia ambil larutan yang sudah berwarna pink dan main toast2 sama ipang, act like it's a champagne "cheer!". T_T Belom cukup disitu, dia coba ngerjain pada awalnya oke-oke aja. Kemudian si Ayyub mendapati bahwa cairan itu akan berubah warna very soon, jadi karna freak out kali ya dia muter yang buat nutup burette nya dia puter 360 derajat. Dari posisi vertical ke vertical lagi. Yang bermakna itu ga ketutup dan NaOH nya berkurang sangat banyak.

THANKS FOR RUIN OUR EXPERIMENT!
Pulang, gue langsung berenang, demi menjaga gue dari stress berkepanjangan minggu ini. And, abis berenang I'm relieved.

*Usual Tuesday, ulangan biologi dan bisa! alhamdulillah. walaupun ehem,ehem dikit. 
*Maulid on Wednesday, got ceramah and go home.
*Supposed to be batik on Tuesday, English test I got 93 yeay! Remedial kimia. 
*Thank God It's Jum'at! nothing on Friday.

ONE SINGLE DAY, MONDAY. RUIN THE WHOLE WEEK. 

Gue doain lo yub, semoga lo makin ga reckless, makin membaur diantara kita, dan semoga lo dapet pacar yang cantik, walaupun masih cantikan gue. heheheh. Good luck in life deh yub.!

HAPPY WEEKENDS EVERYONE! 



life

What a life.

12:40 PM

You know, I'm the one of the unluckiest person in this world. Yes, because I join the Student Association. Okay actually that was HELL. And It not supposed to be hell as that. In Indonesia, who ever join the Student Association is honored with being famous and have power in the school. But, in my school don't expect too much. Because we actually just like an event organizer. YES! EVENT ORGANIZER!


Last time I was the treasurer, and this year I'm in Art thinggy. In charge of the art thingy, the exciting part is PENSI (Pentas Seni) which I really wait for it. I have prepare how this years gonna be. And today, Pak Inton our advisor said, that we just simply combine SIK Talent and Pensi. At that point I was okay, but not until all of them agree with that. FFFFFUUUUUU. My plan is over. I just have to follow what is going on. Well, good bye my dream Pensi. Fly away.. 

Okay, that makes me disappointed. But, yeah it's okay. Still got TUTAP. *sigh* TUTAP is ain't like Pensi. YAUDAH SIH FA! UDAH! okay. I'm finish.

Anyway, I'm suffering *idon'tknowthename* in my lips. It was bitten with my own teeth when I was having subway. And now it's swollen. And really disturbing. :( 

Thanks for read my unimportant life story. Have a good day! 


dilemma

4th Semester

4:16 PM

I'm in the 4th semester. 

Today is the first day and today is not bad enough to start this 4th semester. :)
*Anyway, I'm a high school student. Don't think I'm in university. :D I just simply use '4th semester' to make school more cooler than usual. 

Back to the point, I've passed 3 semesters. This semester and one more to go. After this, national exam coming :O . 11th grade. I just have time 1 year. exactly one year to prepare. Time flies so fast! One year maybe won't enough for me. :( 

ONE YEAR! in one year I have to decide which way I want to continue my study? Where would be the best? How I'm gonna realize it? What should I do as preparation? and last thing is AM I SURE WITH MY CHOICE? . These question always freaking me out. HONESTLY, until today I still don't have all the answers for those question above. Yeah, pity me.

Start from now, I have to lists all the 'I wanna be'. And sort it depends on many aspect. Yes, I have to do that. 

Be happy for those who had passed this situation.


“Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” ― Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight

life

hoping for nothing gonna happen

2:46 PM


I always hope for something. Something that make me happy.
But, I know that when I'm hoping that, 
actually never gonna happen. why?
because I'm hoping for something that I know it never happen.

It is just me, 
who really have a positive thinking and really optimistic
TO WAIT UNTIL ONE DAY IT REALLY HAPPENS.


       Sincerely,

life

Money expired

11:53 AM


I just wondering, if money had an expired date.

If they have extra money, they have to spend it because, if they ain't spend it, it'll be expired and we can't use it. Such a waste of money right? so people will only take money as much as they need or we just gonna waste it.

So we cannot save some money ?

of course we can, if we want to save money. The period of validity of the money will be extended until several year but, people only can take the money when needed only.

For example, if the save money for their kids to pay college fees. they can only take the money at the time that the kids go for college. Or if you save for emergency, then if there's emergency then you can take the money.


As the result, government can control the money circulation so that inflation will never happen. People don't have to worry about rising price of daily needs.
and people can have prosperous life. Is that what people dream of?


EVERYONE CAN HAVE PROSPEROUS LIFE!


forerveralone

Think>didn't do>regret = stupid

2:32 PM

I think about to ask or to do something,
but I'm not sure,
so I didn't do it,
and then later I'll regret
that I didn't do what I'm thinking.
and it happens again and again.
isn't that stupid?
oh yes! it is.

Nevermind, I used to.
sigh
I used to be stupid.
sigh
I'm also reckless,
and careless,
also *nevermind I'll keep it myself*.

If you ask me, whether I'm tired or not for being stupid.
I'll say yes.
but,
I'm never change,
always stupid as usual.


P/S: this is Saturday night. Which I suppose to have a little joy in this crust. but, yeah now I'm posting a post ALONE and I'm wondering why I'm so stupid. #foreveralone .

exam

Exam Day-2

9:03 AM


Today is Chemistry as you know it. I think I've tell you in the previous post. Today also got English. Erm, Is it normal we messed up in 1st and 2nd day of exam? because i pretty messed up in these 2 days. T_T .

CHEMISTRY from the bottom of my heart, I would say I LOVE CHEMISTRY!. Yes I do! and somehow I realize that like only doesn't help me on exam. Just like what I've been through today. I wanna cry? yes! before chemistry I was not really in the good mood. I hate to see class' brilliant mind, can answer the question than given to us while me, .......... . You know what? I rather sit in chemistry class for 2 hours non-stop than sitting in Biology class. I don't know why chemistry is interesting to me. But, my chemistry result that will be announce very soon, DOES NOT EXPLAIN MUCH that I love chemistry. Yeah. poor me.

ENGLISH today's test is difficult. Yes, it is! I hate grammar, and somehow Ma'am Ati (my English teacher) was very kind gave me 25 questions in tenses and bla..blaa. So, I'll get low score for this exam.

Oh I'm screwed up! messed up! why? I think I need to be more serious. okay.
I've clean my room. So, that I will have comfort surrounding to do revision.
Again! WISH ME LUCK! cause LUCK WORKS FOR ME. and tomorrow is Physics, ICT and PE.

Have a good day!

life

Trendsetter or a Copy Cat?

4:14 PM

This happens quite often in my life. I just start to like something and suddenly it become very popular among us. This is happen in the matter of anything. Song, food, passions,hobby and etc. I know I'm selfish because I want to be unique. Different than the others. Sigh.


Trendsetter if I start it all, and many people follow my footstep, or to also like what I like. But, then when lots of people starting to do the same, they a lil bit late than me and somehow, in a week or two they're good already on that stuff, when I still wondering why people also like what I like. sigh.

Copy Cat, I'll be a copy cat soon. No, VERY SOON! I decide my future. and I told someone. And the someone find it's interesting and the someone had taken the same decision. BUT, the someone go earlier to the plan. THE SAME PLAN AS MINE! and later, I'll be a copy cat of the someone.Sigh.

why life is unfair. Can I be someone someday? I always want to be someone. So other people will respect me. That's what in my mind. I also like to be surrounded with people who had different hobbies, genre of music, and etc. The thing is yes! I want to be different.

I'm looking for my identity? maybe, I don't know what my passion is, what I'm gifted in and what my personality is. No, I'm not looking. I'm shaping my self to a thing that I think it's probably match with me.

Oh, why life is so hard. Lucky I had someone who help me to make it smooth, easy and less painful. I really grateful to have people who care about me. And the important thing they
understand me. Thank you mom, dad, pengyou, classmates and you ♥.

Thanks for reading, leave your comment.
maybe you can help me! Have a good day!

life

another 2 weeks, Part II

2:50 AM

Let's continue suffering!


Anyway, Finally 'another 2 weeks' is almost done! only 1 week left! THANK GOD!

If the beginning was tortured by mandarin assignment. Actually that was not bad enough. I can through that stressful and torture way very smoothly and painfully. Only one week left, I really grateful to god. Who making this week not really long.

First of all, Indonesia vs Malaysia football SEA GAMES was last two days, and INDONESIA lose. Oh man, that's even worsen my week! Lose again? and the following day, I was like loosing spirit. Yes! I'm ain't kidding. I Love my country so much. So whenever they lose I will also sad.

Oh yes, this is Saturday, today suppose to be my usual Saturday but, what happen? I don't have my usual Saturday, which is can refresh me up until the following weekends come. Today got lots of people gathering in my house. So, I need to help my mom to do all the preparation. That's okay. And He will come too! :D At least there is something cheer me up! but, after this I must be really tired, to clean it. sigh. Nevermind.

I wish I can have my usual Saturday in the following weekends.

Have a good weekends everyone!


life

another 2 weeks.

10:35 AM

I don't know why. In every part of my life there are always 2 weeks that is not usual than other week. Confused?. What I mean is there are 2 weeks that something that I don't want it happen, happened. And the funny thing, there was always 2 weeks and more. never less than 2 weeks.


This 2 weeks, gonna be so hard. as usual '2weeks' and the worse thing, after the '2 weeks' here come my exam. So it means, I had to suffering the '2 weeks' and also I had to study for the exam. GREAT!

This horrible '2 weeks' start with Mandarin Assignment . I failed last week dictation. so Ma Lao Shi assign us in an assignment which is to write all the vocabulary with the steps ten times. Once again, TEN TIMES! okay. You must know how mandarin characters is. And now you can imagine how me and my friends are badly escape from that torture.

This not over yet, I'll post more about this '2 weeks'. *because I still got Mandarin to do -_-"*

So, yeah this is my story. And yours?

Curhat

Edu Fair --> Confused.

3:22 PM

SIGH -__-"


Edu fair make me think what to take,which to apply and bla..bla..bla..
Edu Fair is definitely help us a lot about taking programs in a university, they give clear information about their own university and also some free stuff to attract people to come to their booth (this one is apa banget) well, it works anyway.

Back to main point.Edu fair supposed to help me much.

Yeah, I'm still in 10th grade. still got 2 more years to finish High School. Even though I'm still faaaaar away from U's life but, it's okay rite to have plan for the following years? so, I start to think what program match me, or what faculty that I want. ANDDD END WITH CONFUSENISME. (read=confused).

okay another SIGH -____-"

The funny thing is, I came out with the idea of being Psychologist. and I tell everyone what I wanna be. Okay, that's great. and the other day my friend who experienced with U's stuff ask me to try this and that. and I came out with another idea of taking business. and it happen again and again. and AGAIN END WITH CONFUSENISME (read=confuse)

well, maybe I need to be consistent with my self. believe in what I've decided and live with what I've decided. Allah, please help me to choose, and please show me the right path to my success. AMIN!


p/s: Today and the next two days in PWTC, They have Indonesian Edu Fair. University2 from all over Indonesia will gather there giving you information that you'll need.

I know this post is BORING and ANNOYING. :p
don't read it if you don't wanna be anoyyed! Haahaha (crazy mode on <-- effect from CONFUSENISME)

thanks for reading.!


discussion

Wanting, Desire...

4:28 AM

I just wanna rewrite my opinion about my last night discussion.


Wanting, desire, anxiety, wish or everything you called it. It's normal for human being want something. Isn't? for example, It's normal for working people wanting good car, luxurious house or maybe a vacation to Europe. Maybe for student like me, who lack of money, wanting latest gadget or maybe accessories and stuff like that is normal.

Okay what I disagree is, when people said they want something, it doesn't always mean that they really want it! It can be only just saying! For me, If I said " I want this.." "I want that.." it doesn't mean I want it SO BADLY. like crazy to have it. No. It just saying that I want. Once again, It Just Saying. not more than that! I have this problem for such a long time when I said to my Mom what I want then she start giving advice what necessary thing and what unnecessary thing is. *sigh

So, The point is when people say that they want something, sometimes it doesn't really mean that they really want it. Just saying.

Thanks for reading! :D