Have you ever gone through a series of drama in your life?

Well, we all certainly have. Whether is a small roller coaster ride or a huge roller coaster ride with 4 loops that scares you out, we all must have gone through it. Depressed, sad, and any other unwanted feelings are always ready to come to us whenever we fail or experience a tragedy. The question is, how would you react with these kind of situation?

I have this one theory, that actually work for me to overcome depression and sadness. I was really depressed once. Everything just gone wrong, my plans are ruined and I was really sad and depressed. As the time flies, which is two years time, I finally gain back the confidence and the spirit to move on and continue life as it is. In short, I accept what has happened to me. Is it easy? trust me it's not easy. If it's easy, it won't took me two years to completely heal and move on.

There are three stages in depression or sadness that you have to go through.

First, BE SAD. It is totally okay for you to feel sad after a set of tragedies. As a human being, feeling sad is really normal. That part of emotion is always here inside us. Call someone a liar if they say they haven't felt sad. Even as a child we cried a lot. Go, be sad! mourn your life, cry! take it all out from you. But, you have to make sure that this stage doesn't take you long. Because life has to go on. After you finished mourning your life, let's go to the second stage.

Second, ACCEPT it. After locking yourself in your room for a week or two, you have to accept it. You have all the time in the world when you lock yourself in your room. Take that time to reflect as well. What has happened, how it affects your life and how and when you want to move on. Try to see positives sides behind it. Slowly open up and talk to other people about your problem. Again, you have all  the time you need for this accepting stage. It won't be easy. Sometimes you will feel like you're going back to stage one. Sadness and pain will haunt you down, but be strong. Look up to the positive things that you found. And find a way to escape those feelings, to cheer yourself up. Be it a slice of cake, good cup of coffee, or a talk over a bowl of Pho with your friend.

Last stage is MOVING ON. This is the point, where you are tired of being sad and you accepted everything as part of life. You will feel like you can breath again, that the sky is always bright and you are ready to face new challenges. You will be more energized as ever. At this stage, as you flash back to the past stages, you will smile and feel grateful that you finally did it. You finally escape the sadness.

It may takes months or even a couple of year. It's alright. Just enjoy the process. Have you ever be in the same situation again, you will go through these stages faster than before. Because you were there once, and now you know how to deal with it.

And always remember,

If you can see the positive sides of everything, you will be able to live a much richer life.

 -Celestine Chua

2013? I had great life so far. I'm enjoying every second in 2013. I don't know, is it only me or what. I feel really close to my friends. My incredible friends. I love them. They always made my day no matter how harsh the day was. They are more than words. I love you guys. I love the way we always laugh for stupid nonsense things. If me, I feel my heart is bonded with you guys :*

Since national exam is 8 weeks away.. And I know we will go to separate ways. I want to say that, please we keep this bond forever. I hope we can still be friends no matter where we are. I'm so gonna miss you guys. You guys worth even much more that diamonds. :')

We had the promise written right? Don't forget that.

Kenapa? kenapa? kenapa?

Kata-kata 'kenapa' itu udah lazim banget digunakan didalam kehidupan sehari-hari. Bisa dibilang 'kenapa' itu adalah ingredients words yang kita ucapin setiap hari nya. 'Kenapa' biasanya digunakan untuk mengekspresikan ketidak tahuan.

Lucunya, ada 'kenapa' yang mudah dijawab, agak sulit dijawab, bahkan ada 'kenapa' yang tidak bisa dijawab. Aneh ya? Kenapa seseorang bisa berfikir sampai ke arah itu, sedangkan sebenarnya tidak ada jawaban untuk itu.

Ada lagi 'kenapa' yang tidak perlu dijawab.

Kenapa? (see, kita sebut sekali lagi kata ini)



Bukan semuanya 'kenapa' harus dijawab - Ummi.

Seperti kata orang, sometimes something has to be left unspoken.


Seperti kata-kata diatas. This post is left unspoken. If you ask why? please refer to the sentence above.

Kutipan itu selalu ku lihat
dengar dan ingat
Tiada yang tahu apa arti sejatinya
disebalik kutipan itu

Bukan hanya aku
kamu ataupun dia
Semua orang tau tentang itu
Kutipan kata yang selalu
menghiasi dinding kamarku

Lalu apakah arti disebalik itu
Lima hari yang lalu
aku menemukan arti sejatinya
kutipan itu

Buat ku kutipan itu sangat benar adanya
Aku telah merasakan nya
Anehnya kau mengatakan hal yang sama
kau merasa hal yang sama

Kita sepakat
Home is where the heart is
dan di sini lah kita
masih berdua, menuai cerita indah

Home is where the heart is.

It's been such a quite long time since my last post.

You just have to believed in. I survive maths exam while suffering the ache that caused by my period time.
Math was given for 2 hours. My stomach ache start a couple of minutes before the exam was started. And while I was doing the ache is still there in my belly. 15 minutes before the exam ends, THE PAIN WAS GONE! and I was like hgsdfdhkgthjsgfgjdfdgdgfht. Okay, today was perfect day. Super duper hard math exam with period ache.

Note this, you can relief your stomach ache in your period time by doing math for almost and hour. It'll work on 30 minutes of time.

Dari judulnya kita bisa tau kalo gue masih dalam suasana di pantai. Maklum baru pulang study tour ke Pangkor. Seru loh, gue tim biologi. jadi kita snorkeling sama jalan-jalan di pantai. Jadi agak sedikit menghitam sih kulit. Tapi gapapa, worth it. Ngomongin ombak, ombak itu bisa menggambarkan banyak hal. Salah satunya perasaan. Yep, kita pasti sering denger puisi-puisi atau lirik-lirik lagu yang menggambarkan perasaan lewat ombak. Atau ngga? atau gue yang sotoy? Yaudah lah. Tapi perasaan itu emang kadang-kadang kaya ombak. terombang-ambing. Ga jelas kemana. Tapi yang kita tau, ombak akan berakhir di pantai. Sama seperti halnya perasaan, walaupun labil ga tau mau kemana, atau mau pilih apa, pasti ujung-ujung nya kita akan menjatuhkan satu pilihan.

Pas study tour, gue snorkeling bareng tim biologi yang lain. Gue main ditengah-tengah laut yang sepertinya sebentar lagi pasang. Seperti yang kita tau, kalo pasang ombak nya bakal jadi gede dan kenceng. Pas gue berenang gue kebawa ombak, tapi ujung-ujungnya keseret lagi ke tempat awal. Gitu aja terus . Yah, kurang lebih selama stengah jam. Gue ngerasa gue labil banget pas kebawa ombak. Kadang gue mendekat ke pantai, tapi ga lama ketarik lagi menjauh dari pantai. Kadang mendekat ke pantai trus nabrak karang-karang, sakit. Nanti tetep aja kebawa lagi menjauh dari pantai. Bisa ngebayangin kan?

Buat gue itu semua seperti kehidupan. Kehidupan gue sepertinya sih (buka kartu). Eh, ngga juga. gue rasa semua orang pasti pernah ngerasain kehidupan yang terombang-ambing. Gue gatau mau nyelesein tulisan ini gimana. Yang pasti gue sekarang lagi berada ditengah-tengah ombak besar. Nope, gue udah balik dari Pangkor. Jadi gue ga lagi beneran berenang di laut.

I want to say Alhamdulillah, Thanks to my beloved lord, Allah S.W.T who always blessed me with thousands of joy and happiness. And I wanna thank Allah for this following blesses:

1. I met someone important to my life. Last Friday. At first, I'm a bit nervous and scared. I'm scared about what her impression on me. But, it turns out fine. She's nice, friendly and I'm save *I think* I love last Friday, I wish I could stay a lil bit longer to know her more.

2. On the Saturday evening, I went to ART  FRIEND! After begging and made a puss in boots cute face. Full effort! and yes! my mom bought me a canvas and acrylic. How happy I am. I'm still thinking what to paint on it. since I only have the basic color.

3. I passed my driving test! This Monday.. Yeay finally.. and  I got my driving licence this evening. Alhamdulillah, after a failure I got it already. Now, I'm getting sure that proverbs 'Failure is the beginning of success' is true. Alhamdulillah. :) Driving Licence babe!

4. I miss my late Nikon D3000. As I love photography but have no skill in it, on Tuesday a friend of mine asked a help to me to take photos of all my school student. In the new building, new classroom. We set chairs and bench for them to sit and took their photos. And a stool for personal pictures. I use Canon. School's camera. I really enjoy it. Feel like the new class is my studio. REALLY ENJOY the photo session. We're gonna put it on the year book. :) oh my school is getting better than ever.

5. My marks, even I don't receive all the results. But, the one that I have it now is quite okay, except Chemistry ( I told you before) and English. Ah my English sucks at this test. 76 out of 100. I used to get above 80. Need to study a bit hard. Alhamdulillah, I got 96 for Mandarin! and 92 for Indonesian language which is the higest. And 93 for civic. I really love to see 9 in my marks. 9 as the tens of course :D Alhamdulillah. May the rest have a good one too. AMIN!

So yes, Thank you Allah for blessing me with such a happiness.
Alhamdulillah.


When happiness comes in a row, you will find it's very amusing, life seems like no problem at all - Afifa

Dajia Hao! Today is last day for Mid Semester test. It was, urm.. BAD. Yes, today's sucks. Chemistry somehow very hard and ya wanna know? I filled the answer paper with some kind of abstract painting or doodling. Okay, it's over now. Tomorrow is 'Nyepi' in Indonesia, so my school will have a day off.

Oh, I haven't mention that I fail the driving test last two weeks. Hehe. There are 2 part of the test. One inside the driving range and in the real road. Okay, I passed two part in driving range. But, the 3pointer I fail it. So, it consider I failed all. Not sure if you understand. And the road test, THEY GIVE ME VIVA! okay, viva is nicer  than Kancil. But, I used to practice with kancil. So when I use Viva, I'm not confident enough. So, yes I fail the test! Gonna repeat it next Monday! pray for me!


Anyway, I bake macaroons. Taste weird and look peculiar. But, at least I'm trying. And, Thanks to Tante Wulan, who bought me the flour and borrowed me the silipad. Thanks a lot tante :)

And, this is how they look :

• Mid Semester is around the corner Afifa! Belajar gih sana! nilai jelek semua juga, malu dong!
• Find new hobby deh, jadi dirumah tuh ga baca komik+tidur aja. Find something yang bermanfaat deh!
• Mana katanya New Year's Resolution nya mau life nya lebih ter-organize?
• Udah lah, kegagalan bukan segalanya. Bahkan itu awal dari kesuksesan!
• Stop being not you fa, you're great with what you have and what you are.
• Stay away from clingy and annoying part of you Afifa! It's disturbing people.
• Pikirin mau jadi apa kamu Afifa, mau ambil jurusan apa? mau kuliah dimana?
• Tanya ke diri sendiri deh, umur berapa sih? kok masih childish banget.
• Satu lagi, itu benang di bibir jangan di gigit-gigit, ntar kenapa-napa loh! dijait lagi mau?

Jadi, kemaren gue ketemu Pak Budi ( I mention his name on this blog few times). Gue minta di install in Corel Draw. Dan Pak Budi yang baik hati itu tentu tidak masalah dimintain tolong. Sambil menunggu nginstall Corel nya selesai. Pak Budi ini mengintrogasi gue. Dan again, pertanyaan yang gue ga bisa jawab cuma satu. Selalu itu. "Nanti mau ngelanjutin ke jurusan apa?" Gue ga jawab. Dan ujung-ujungnya gue curhat. Dan ternyata Pak Budi memberi respon yang sangat baik. Dengan cara, berfilosofi.

First of all, I want to thank god because my lips is getting better day by day. Thank You Allah, for giving me back the normality to my lips. Alhamdulillah.

Okaay, today I visited two art shop. One is T-Square just right at the back of Central Market. Click this to open the map. It's totally awesome store for people who love art. And Yes, I do love art. Another one is Art Friend . It is located in The Gardens, Mid Valley. This is also awesome place for people who go for art stuff.

How to go?

T-Square Trading Sdn Bhd
M22, Central Market, Jalan Kasturi, Kuala Lumpur, Wilayah Persekutuan, 50050
03-2274 1922 ‎

You can take LRT untill, Masjid Jamek and walk a bit (less than a kilometer) or stop at the Pasar Seni station.
The T-Square is right at the back of Central Market.


and...

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia – The Gardens @ Mid Valley City!
Third Floor Lot T-213
Lingkaran Syed Putra
59200 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Tel: +603 2284 7777
Fax: +603 2284 7577
Opens Daily from 10am to 10pm

Well, for Mid Valley / The Gardens it's a bit difficult. You have only 2 options either by a car or KTM and stop at Mid Valley station. Or, you can take LRT to Bangsar Station and take a cab to the Gardens.

They have many kind of art supply, such as canvas, acrylic paint, dye paint, even gypsum and many kind of pencil for drawing. It's amazing store for me. I Love Art. :)

Yes, I'm promoting the store without any reward. But, it's really nice to go there.

The problem is, I really have great passion in ART, but I really don't have any skill in it. So yeah, every time I go there, I just can see it. Yeah, no point of buying, cause I'm not gonna produce something good after all. So yeah, so saaaaaaaaaad.

Anyway, someone told me this "It's never late to start"

And yes, I'll start from drawing random thing.

Feel the passion and made something from it - Afifa

I had minor surgery today, to remove the unusual ulcer. I'm shaking while waiting the turn. Suddenly got stomachache. They called my name, and I came to the surgery room. I don't have to change clothes or anything, cause it's only small surgery. The doctor was calm. He took a photo of my unusual ulcer before remove it. After that he started inject me with anesthetic. I can't feel anything. The doctor cut my unusual ulcer, I even can hear the thing was being cut off. Sounds really scary.

He told me all the process, he said "okay now I'll do some stitches" "and now it's 90% done" "okay, we wipe the blood and give you another antiseptics " and finally done. I can't feel anything, the anesthetic still working. I looked to the mirror. "GOD SAVE MY LIPS!" It is weird. When got home, I can feel the pain. Not really hurt anyway, so tomorrow I'll go to school, maybe.

Oh yeah, I missed the class photo session. :(

The doctor said "After this, eat carefully ya.. so you won't bite your lips again and don't have through another surgery again"

"I WILL!"

Feel the pain, so you'll know how much it's hurts. And after that You'll be more careful - Afifa

Today I visited doctor. Yeah, my unusual ulcer is not ulcer. So,I have to remove it from my lips. They are going to do minor surgery to my not usual ulcer to remove it. So yeah, I'm going to have another day off. Monday till Wednesday. Surgery, sound scary. And actually it is. Just pray for me. I won't talk for at least a week. So maybe the class will be less noisy. They will miss my voice. Hahaha.

At 5pm I have my usual driving class, oh this time also unusual. Why my life keeps unusual day by day? bad luck I think. Parking is definitely not easy. So tough. The steering is so damn heavy. I need to eat more. But, i plan to eat less. Sigh. All things goes otherwise. And the instructor said "Afifa, your engine is off for 30 times you know? the maximum is how much? 3!" and I'm speechless.

Okay, my unusual day and unusual me is enough for today~~

Let the rest to be usual-Afifa

It's weekends. :)

*Let's forget, kejadian hari Senin. Dimana kelas kami melakukan praktikum, titrasi. Yang sebenarnya tidak terlalu sulit, karna sudah dijelaskan terlebih dahulu oleh guru kimia kami Pak Dwi. Everything start from the time Pak Dwi membagikan kelompok. And I'm chosen with Husnul and Ayyub. What is in my mind? "Sekelompok sama Ayyub ga kiamat kok fa. Ada harapan walaupun peluang nya 1 per 100." I'm being optimistic. Which is good. Titrasi bisa di ulang minimal 3 kali untuk mendapatkan hasil yang akurat. Gue sama Husnul udah mencoba 2 kali. Pas yang ke-tiga, somehow Pak Dwi nyuruh Ayyub yang ngerjain. Dia ambil larutan yang sudah berwarna pink dan main toast2 sama ipang, act like it's a champagne "cheer!". T_T Belom cukup disitu, dia coba ngerjain pada awalnya oke-oke aja. Kemudian si Ayyub mendapati bahwa cairan itu akan berubah warna very soon, jadi karna freak out kali ya dia muter yang buat nutup burette nya dia puter 360 derajat. Dari posisi vertical ke vertical lagi. Yang bermakna itu ga ketutup dan NaOH nya berkurang sangat banyak.

I really love going out. Having a walk in a street and gaze around, feel the air. Staying at home sometimes cause me headache. By the time I was outside, I meet so many people, so many faces and for sure I can learn something by only going out and walking.

Saturday, 11.2.12
Me and Alif ( my lil brother) sat near the KLCC's fountain while waiting my mom and dad finish jogging. I sat there, I look around and for one second I stop and I stare at them. Okay maybe stare is not proper way but, yes I stare at them.

They are a couple. They joking, and laughing happily. Really romantic. But, you would ask why is it romantic? every couple did the same.

It's romantic because, they both are mute. They use sign language. Don't you see? They laughing happily as they don't have any problem with life. They mute, but it never used to be something that stop them to love someone. To have a happy life. Why we never ask our self? We have all working in our body. We can talk, see, hear and even feel. But, why sometimes I myself cannot feel happy in my life. I supposed to be happier than that people.You know why? They really grateful, they accept what god has given to us. Maybe, I'm not really grateful so I still can't enjoy my life. So the key is GRATEFUL.

I learn how to be grateful.

Galau. 
Banyak anak muda zaman sekarang dikit-dikit galau, bentar-bentar galau. Sekarang ini, galau seperti trend. Bahkan mungkin saking nge-tend nya kalau ga pernah galau berarti ga gaul. Apapun itu, galau sekarang sering melanda anak muda di Indonesia (kok cuma anak muda Indonesia? ya, karna yang menyebut galau itu orang Indonesia). 


apa sih galau sebenarnya?

You know, I'm the one of the unluckiest person in this world. Yes, because I join the Student Association. Okay actually that was HELL. And It not supposed to be hell as that. In Indonesia, who ever join the Student Association is honored with being famous and have power in the school. But, in my school don't expect too much. Because we actually just like an event organizer. YES! EVENT ORGANIZER!

I'm in the 4th semester.